If there is a scripture that parallels my song “My Soul Cries Out” the most, it may be this.
Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord; Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy. If you, Lord, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
When I wrote the song “My Soul Cries Out,” I wanted to be honest about my walk with God. And honestly, it is a struggle. I wrestle every minute with decisions between right and wrong. I believe that we all struggle with different trigger points and I believe that we are all prone to an addiction of some sort.
It’s hard to live a good life when consumed by addiction
Some have asked me if the church would be able to relate to that line in the second verse of my song. I think that if we are honest with ourselves, we could all agree and say “yes, I do struggle with ______________.” It doesn’t have to be alcohol, sex, porn, food, drugs or some other staple dependancy. We can become addicted to ourselves, social media, our jobs, our fashion, our possessions, our social status, our kids, our spouses, and even our ministries. Sure, we say they are “all about God,” but in reality they may partially be a means to fill our need for self worth & recognition… or maybe we put our ministry before our God ordained responsibilities to our spouse and children at home.
The bottom line is that God sees through our addictions, and we do not need to dwell on our shortcomings. And no matter how deeply active we may be in our sin, a small part inside of us still longs for God… our souls cry out to Him, and He is always there calling us home. God already knows your hearts condition, so confess your setbacks to Him, thank Him and worship Him with a clear mind. Be refreshed and be renewed.